Nick Cannon Remembers Infant Son Zen on the Anniversary of His Passing. While a father of 12, last year, Cannon and one of his parenting partners, Alyssa Scott, experienced a life event no parent should ever have to endure. Months after being diagnosed with a brain tumor, their 5-month-old son, Zen passed away on December 5, 2021.
Now, Cannon has taken to Instagram to share with the public how he is doing one year after losing his beloved child. “Physically I’m definitely on the mend but mentally and spiritually I’m broken,” Cannon began writing.
“[I’ve] been tossing and turning all night, and as much as I know I need rest, last night I couldn’t sleep at all. I can’t believe it’s been a year already since the toughest day of my life occurred. Such a painful anniversary. Losing a child has to be the heaviest, most dark, and depressive experiences that I will never get over. A mixture of guilt, pain, and sorrow is what I suppress daily.”
Nick continued touching on how his life choices are questioned by many but revealed that his ability to love and love hard, never should be. “I am far from perfect and often fall short and make decisions in my life that many questions, but anyone who knows me knows my heart,” the host added.
“I love hard, I love big and I love with my entire heart and soul and I just wish my Little Man could’ve felt more of that love while he was here on Earth. One of my Spiritual Leaders recently told me that I am in the midst of one of the most challenging seasons of my life, but encouraged me to be steadfast and know that all of this will only make me stronger, and to not lean on my own understanding but to rely on the peace that surpasses all.”
And while Nick admits he is doing his best to continue on, he is honest, writing, “let me tell you, it’s tough… I know a few days ago I wrote a post from my hospital bed saying I will be okay and I just needed rest so don’t waste your prayers on me but I can definitely use those prayers right now… ????Continue to Peacefully Rest My Son, Zen Scott Cannon. We Love you Eternally.”
It’s unclear if Cannon is still in the hospital or if he is continuing to heal from home. “Okay, so I guess I’m not Superman…,” he wrote on Instagram revealing why he was in the hospital. “I promised myself I would never be back at this place again.”
Cannon added that his hospitalization however was a “great lesson to take care of YOU or YOU won’t be able to take care of everyone else. Don’t trip though, I don’t need any well-wishes or prayers, just some solid rest, and I will be back on the journey to becoming stronger than ever…It’s just pneumonia, nothing I can’t handle.
Crazy thing is, last night we were just rocking a sold-out crowd at Madison square garden in front of thousands of fans, and now I’m all alone in a tiny hospital room. Life is definitely a rollercoaster! #LupusWarrior.”
